Don't feel bad about taking time to give yourself more energy in the long run. Go for a walk or jog. Do something you enjoy to help recharge your batteries.
If you plan to continue spending time on personal projects or CV, maybe change your scenery and go to a nice cafe or similar. Maybe coworking spaces or new environments will unlock opportunities to network in ways you haven't thought of.
Keep your mind focused on the end goal and consider each step a learning opportunity.
Also, take this time to do things you might not have had the time to do before: learn a new programming language or tech stack or write that blog post you've been sitting on; you never know what doors this type of thing could open for you.
I understand your metaphor but I think it's probably a stretch.
Maybe it's better to say the tool has sharp edges that if you aren't familiar with it, can bite you. But with a bit of practise and some knowledge you can master it.
It's not a stretch that practically everybody who accidentally ends up in vim (often because it's git's default editor) ends up googling how to exit the program. It's the tool that you can't even drop by any intuitive action.
This is true of the original vi but not of modern vim, where both the landing page and the message shown on ctrl+c clearly state how to exit. ctrl+c will also exit insert mode, so you don't need to know about modes or the escape key.
Of course it is possible that one might not think of using ctrl+c, but that's lacking general shell knowledge, not vim knowledge.
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